There he was, in an instant, racing across the highway in front of me…It was Father’s Day and I was driving fast, on my way to somewhere. I noticed this fleet-footed Road Runner zip across the road in front of me, his legs and feet moving so fast, they formed a wheel-like blur. I stopped my car on a dime as the breaks squealed and came to a halt.
Sure enough, this was a Road Runner Bird! I had never seen one before, in real life. My gaze upon this bird was as strong as the Road Runner’s gaze upon me! We simply stopped in a moment of time and looked each other in the eye. What was he trying to tell me? In our complete stillness, we observed each other in silence. I noticed the road was hot, the pavement dark, and the sand near his feet close by. I also noticed he was alone…there was no other Road Runner or Coyote near his side.
In an instant a huge smile came across my face…I realized in this very moment that this was my Father’s way of saying ‘Hello Baby Doll, how are you?’ And of course, it was the Road Runner bird as a real life symbol that had never shown up before in my life. . . until today, Father’s Day. Road Runner was my Dad’s very favorite cartoon when I was a child, and I remember his laughter when we watched these cartoons together. Beep! Beep! He adored Road Runner!
My Father’s laughter was always contagious and spread like wildfire to a room full of people. He was always full of joy, and laugher, and very authentic. Even if you did not know what it was he was laughing about, the deep roots of his laughter would come up and out of him, from the very center of his heart and belly, and it would ignite an entire room instantaneously.
The last night I shared with my father was one of those joyful nights, full of love and laughter. We were dining at a restaurant in Malibu, CA with my mother, brother and a few friends. It was New Year’s Eve and the energy was festive and joyful. By the second course my mother decided to take a family photograph. As she held up the camera and clicked on her old Kodak, the camera was reversed and she actually took a picture of herself. My father howled with laughter, partly because of the way he adored her and all her silly ways…
His unstoppable laughter that night on New Year’s Eve quickly spread to every one of us at the table, which then spread to our neighbors tables, until the entire restaurant was full of laughter. One person at a time, one moment at a time, my father’s joy and laughter filled the entire room and atmosphere of the restaurant. It was an unstoppable energy of JOY! Tears of laughter! Tears of Joy! What a beautiful memory of my father!
This was the last night I shared with my Father. It was a very good night! The next day he packed his bags and went home, only to go out to sea on a ship the next day, where he would lose his life.
When I saw the Road Runner today, I knew it was my Father, showing up to greet me on this day with a symbol that I could recognize in this earth suit. I smiled. I laughed and I cried. The Coyote (life challenges) always sets up a trap for the Road Runner bird, and the scheme always backfires. Road Runner is never captured or damaged by the life challenge, but proceeds ahead with a characteristic “Beep! Beep!” That was my Father’s calling to me today….”Keep going Baby Doll…Proceed ahead, even through these challenging times. Keep moving forward. Keep beeping your Beep! Beep!”
Road Runner is rooted in his adherence to a set of rules that retain equal sympathy for both the hapless coyote and his speedy prey, the Road Runner that would humiliate, but never harm the coyote.
Beep! Beep! Keep Going….Keep Moving Forward…Proceed Ahead! Keep Beeping your own unique Beep! Beep!