The Sands of Time…

Taking a peek back while looking forward…

 

Dancing in the Sun - 2016 Photo Credit: Andrea Domjan Photography

(Photo: Andrea Domjan)

 

Sometimes in our lives there is a moment of surprise that takes our breath away.  We recognize the beauty all around us, in this present moment, even through sadness and loss.  The beginning of 2016 was like this for me.  Another Beloved family member had passed through the veils and all I could do was take a deep breath of life, feel gratitude for this present moment, and get on a plane to honor my Uncle Ted’s life with other close family members.  Many of them I had not seen since the passing of my Uncle Sandy at our last family gathering at Arlington National Cemetery. 

 

There was a feeling of peace within me, going home to Florida this time.  I felt such gratitude for my youth and the family and parents I grew up with.  I felt grateful for these beautiful white sandy beaches, and the many years I had spent walking them, often alone, trying to figure out my path and the next steps along my path.  Every day was a day of adventure in the ocean . . . swimming, water-skiing, diving, fishing, and just cruising on boats.  I felt such joy and happiness, just being alive.  All the boats and trips to the Bahamas and Caribbean were a plus, but it was here, in this place and along these white sandy beaches that I felt most at home as a child.

 

I checked in a day early to sit in silence and just feel the environment of my youth once again.  It was raining when I arrived and the decks and walkways leading out to the beach were full of gray mist.  I loved it.  Even in the soft gray of a storm passing, it was beautiful.  Young surfers come out to find a wave which reminded me of my youth on these Florida beaches.  As a young teenage girl I was often hanging out on the end of a surfboard, waiting for the next wave to ride, or the next boat to catch.  Such sweet memories!  Such Golden Moments to cherish and remember.

 

Home Sweet Home - Florida

Home Sweet Home – Florida

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Florida Sands

Florida Sands

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There is much to be Grateful for, as I remember these decades that have passed and all the family members that have gone before me.  They are all a Blessing in my life, and I know for sure that each of them is shining their light upon me from the heavens above.   I feel your Love.  I feel your Light.  I feel your Grace.   

 

Walking ahead...welcoming in the new!

Walking ahead…welcoming in the new!  (Photo: Andrea Domjan)


 

The Ebb and the Flow…

Florida Beaches - A Hole in the Sand...

Florida Beaches – A Hole in the Sand… This is how it is when a Tribe Member leaves you…like a hole in the sand of your lifetime,  it is suddenly gone forever, and the precious time you once shared together is suspended, into another Universe.  All that is left  is the Love inside your Heart that will continue to live on, inside of eternity.  Love is like this.  Love is like that.  It always continues on.

Each Friend Represents a World in Us. . .

 

Honey Moons & Friendship

Honey Moon – June 12/13, 2014

 

The Honey Moon

The Honey Moon

 

“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.”

         – Anais Nin

 

That’s how it was with us. . . We were a world unto each other and by the Grace of Divine Destiny, our paths crossed long ago and united us on a journey of the Soul. A long journey of friendship, love, deep connection and soul companionship that blended us together and joined us as One. How is it that my heart can break like this. . . over and over again?  So many deaths in my life, all in such a short time.

I don’t think I can bear it anymore, not even for another second.  My heart is split wide open, with too much pain and grief.  I feel this loss deeply and profoundly.  Have you ever lost a Beloved Best Friend that was closer to you than your own family?  Who knew you from the inside out?  Bare, dark corners and all that lay hidden inside, from the rest of the world.  There is an emptiness inside of me, like a part of my heart has been cut wide open and taken out of me.  I feel completely empty and alone.

While I know that the Soul is eternal, I am in the thickness of this empty forest right now, stuck inside this thorn bush, feeling the heat and slice of this sharp edge.  It cuts me to the core.  My heart bleeds.  Throbs.  Cries.  Rivers of tears flow, and I allow them.  This is grief.  This is loss.  This is the painful knowing that this beautiful and magnificent soul and friend I once could embrace and talk with for hours, sharing and bearing the deepest parts of my soul, is gone.  She was a world unto me that filled me up with delight and surprise, and created new dimensions of space inside my mind and heart, soul and spirit.  She was an architect of my soul’s evolution as we shared, uncovered, built and re-built the stories of the past, present and future.  We dreamed.  We imagined.  We laughed.  We cried.  We howled.  We thought.  We prayed.  We meditated.  We wept.  We walked.  We talked.  We constructed and de-constructed a million pounds of weight that no longer belonged to either of us, in both of our worlds.  We excavated.  We created demolition zones where they needed to be.  We built fortresses and safe camps when we needed them, and then we softly let them go when we did not.

This is the gift we shared.  The unconditional Love and Acceptance of each other, in all ways, always.  No judgement.  No attitude.  No opinion.  No structure.  No walls.  No expectations.  No belief systems.  Just clear, open space to be truly and authentically who we were and how we are, with each other.  This was the deep embrace of our Friendship.  This loving space was always there, forever Present, and always inviting us to go inside of it.  It was the world we shared inside of our Friendship with each other, where new worlds were possible and often created. 

Driving home tonight, I saw the brilliant Orange Sun behind me, like an orb of Golden, Orange Light. . . bigger than the biggest Sunset I have ever seen setting in the West.  In front of me was the Honey Moon, lingering so low and so close to my face, I felt I could reach out and touch it.  To my East were the beautiful dark mountains and shadows, and to my West was the Pacific Ocean, nearing the end of it’s Sunset.  Just before I left on this drive and journey home, a young Asian woman came up to me and embraced me like an old, sweet friend.  We had met once before and she noticed my sorrow.  I shared your photograph with her and told her of your recent passing.  She said, “She’s here with you right now. . . I can feel her” as tears streamed down her face.  I knew it was you, my sweet friend, in this moment, coming here to embrace me this night, in this human form of this charming young woman who knew I needed a hug from you.

 

Soul Sisters ~

My Beloved Friend & Soul Sister ~ Adrienne Grayson

My Beloved Friend &
Soul Sister ~
Adrianne Grayson

 

Soul Sisters ~

Some of us get really lucky in our lives . . . We are Blessed by a Soul Sister that Loves us unconditionally and for many years.  I was Blessed by my Beloved Friend & Soul Sister, Adrianne Grayson, whom I learned today passed through the veils of life to the doorway of death.  She was one of my Angels that lifted me up when my wings had forgotten how to fly.  At some of the darkest moments in my life, she was there, holding me with her Love.

No distance or lapse of time can lessen the Love or the Friendship we shared.  She lives on inside my Heart. Eternal is her Spirit.  As she rests with the Divine, I am eternally grateful for the many years of Love and Friendship we shared.  Times of Sacred Connection, times of Soul Companionship, times of healing, times of deep sharing and compassion, times of long and deep conversations, times of joy and laughter, times of reflection, times of Grace and Beauty, and times of just sitting together in silence, praying and meditating.

The greatest gift my Friend & Soul Sister, Adrianne gave to me, was her unconditional Love.  It was felt in the deepest parts of my being.  She knew me at my core.  I knew her at her core.  We were always there for each other, and in all ways, always.  How rare a friend. How special a companion on this journey of Life.  We honored each other with the gift of a Friendship so rare and true.

Adrianne represents to me what ‘True Beauty from Within’ is all about.  Radiant.  Joyful.  Loving.  Kind.  Generous.  Caring.  Compassionate.  Beautiful.  Charming.  At Peace.  A bright light of Love in my life. Shine on my sweet Beloved Friend & Soul Sister.  You will always be with me, living inside my Heart.

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All You Need is LOVE. . .

 

All You Need Is Love.

All You Need Is Love – and then some…!

 

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE . . .

and then some!

     – Rita Tanos                                                     

    

Yes!   It is always about LOVE.

It’s the absolute sweetest feeling in the Universe that all of us are striving towards in one way or another.  We happen to ‘bump’ into each other all the time, and in many different ways. . .sometimes stumbling while still on our feet.  Some of us are barefoot, and some of us are in fine leathered shoes or boots, while some of us are sprinting on old rubber souls, like tires worn thin after running their course on a thousand mile stretch for the last time.

 

What are are all running towards. . . or running away from?  If we are running towards something, what is it that we are running to?  What is it that makes our heart sing with delight and our bodies move in forward motion, towards that action or achievement?  What is it that lights our heart on fire with desire and imagination?  What is the longing in our soul that directs our heart’s activity in ways that deliver us to our Divine Destiny?  Or not?  Are we moving forward or are we moving away?  Are we wearing rubber soles, leather soles, or are we barefoot in the sand?  Where are we?  Who are we?  Where are we going?  A hundred million grains of sand can feel divine between our toes, but are we paying attention? Do we feel it?  And do we honor where we are on the path?

 

Where is our consciousness right now?  What are we savoring?  What has meaning and purpose, not only for ourselves, but for others and all sentient beings?  Where is our mark of Excellence and our Human Divinity?  Do we even have ‘human divinity’ as we continue to slaughter and destroy so many animals and sentient beings every day?   Can we, as a people release our own ego and our own personal goals, that we believe serve a higher purpose than ourselves, and for just a moment…or two,…or three, let go of that too?  Can we see what is in front of us – right now – right this very moment, without a personal agenda?

Can we be CLEAR and HONEST and FORTHRIGHT about our heart’s longing and our soul’s desire?  What is it we are called to do or be in this very moment without our own ego and agenda?  How can we get out of our own way?

 

Can we all just BREATHE into this very present moment of LIFE,  without our own private or personal agenda?  Everyone seems to want something; …a new car, a new home, a new identity, a new business, a new book, a new client, a new friend, a new deal, a new job, a new wardrobe, a new boyfriend, a new lover, a new soul mate, a new connection, and a new this or  a new that.

Whatever that latest ‘new’ thing is that our ego keeps calling us towards, again and again…What is that?  Where are we placing our thoughts and how are we energetically feeling?  Is there Joy?  Is there Love?  Is there Beauty?  Is there genuine and authentic connection?  Is your heart feeling something way bigger than you?

 

Sometimes we hold the belief that whatever it is we are currently focused on is the most important thing in our universe…in our own little lives.  Sometimes we think and actually believe it is for the ‘advancement’ of all mankind, and that too is our beloved ego embracing us, one more time around the loop.  We  think  ‘it’s ‘our idea’ about how to raise consciousness now.  Perhaps it’s a worthy cause, but even then,  it has a large ego attached to its core.  Somehow, somewhere, there is still a ‘personal identity’ attached to all those ideas and names of  our selves and others.  We want to link.  We want to connect.  We want to co-create.  We want to know there is a Presence, and that we are not alone.  Somehow, they often become ‘Country Club’ Associations …with ‘certain people’s names attached’.

 

What if we all took a very long, deep breathe and leaned into this very moment, . . . very alert and fully alive with present moment awareness.  What if we could ‘feel’ this unique ‘pulse’ of our Universe at this particular moment in time and actually hear it?  What if we could  ‘feel’ the pulse of life that is CRYING OUT for HELP…. RIGHT NOW!

 

Each and every one of us on the planet is striving towards something and someone…in every moment of every day that is far greater than our selves. We long to feel the closeness of our hearts and our souls connected. We all long to feel at ONE, with one another.  It is our Soul’s longing for completion on the human plane.

 

What if we could really hear right now, in this very moment, the profound cries of the Animals, begging us to stop their suffering and their slaughter, and the horrific abuse towards them?   What if…?  Can you hear their cries if you take a moment to think about these precious, voiceless, defenseless animals?  They are all sentient beings, just like you and I, with the same feelings that we feel, only in a different body shape / form and experience than you know yourself to be.

 

Why are we killing and abusing millions of animals EVERY  DAY,  who are innocent, voiceless, precious and unique creatures of LIFE? They  have committed no crime!  They are all sentient beings with feelings and families, just like you and I.

WHY?  WHY ARE WE DOING THIS AND HOW CAN WE STOP THIS INSANITY NOW?

Animal Abuse is a Crime!  Killing is a Crime!  Stop this Suffering and Abuse NOW….TODAY!

What do we really need to do to become aware of and to listen and hear the silent cries of Children in every Country, begging us to stop the violence in their homes, in their schools, in their neighborhoods and in our world?   What if we could really hear and ‘listen’ to this beautiful Planet Earth telling us her secrets…including the most urgent ones of crime that humanity has bestowed upon it, and  we actually do something about it?  What if all sentient beings spoke to us today, right now, and shared their cry for help?  Can you listen long enough to hear them?

They are SPEAKING TO US RIGHT NOW. . . ARE WE LISTENING?  ARE WE TAKING ACTION?  ARE WE MAKING A DIFFERENCE TODAY IN THE LIVES  OF ANY SENTIENT BEING?…whether they are human or animal?

Are we listening?  Are we caring enough to take action?  Where are you?  What are you doing?  How can you help?  Ask yourself these questions.  It is time.  Humans are killing the planet and all the precious wildlife.  Our four footed and winged friends, as well as all creatures deserve to be free. They all have a Holy place in the Universe.  It’s a God appointment with Life.  And human’s keep trying to destroy them, each and every day.  STOP !

If we could really ‘tune in’ to these beautiful creatures of land and sea, earth and sky, right now . . . in this very moment,  what do you think they are telling us?  And what do they want the Human Species to know and act upon urgently?   What is the sound and vibration of the Earth telling us right now?  What do we hear?  What do we ‘listen’ to?  Are we silent enough to hear it?  Are we quiet enough to listen?  Are we courageous enough to act?

It’s all here…right now.  All it takes is a very quiet and still mind to listen, and to ‘hear’.  These are the sounds of the earth calling out to each of us, in our own LIFE…right now.

It is not about what we thought it was about….It is not about out next plan of action or inaction toward our ego self (and what we thought would serve others via our own unique ‘brand’ – as they keep teaching humans today…. It is not about that).    It is about becoming still enough and quiet enough to LISTEN to the sound of what is CRYING OUT FOR YOUR ATTENTION.  IT IS ALL AROUND YOU BUT YOU DON’T EVEN HEAR IT OR FEEL IT.  THE ANIMALS ON THIS PLANET and THE EARTH & SKY NEED YOU NOW.  WILL YOU ACT WITH KINDNESS and COMPASSION?  WILL YOU CARE ENOUGH TO TAKE ACTION?

Your ‘connection’  and your call to action is all about the tenderness of your own heart with another heart, and with all sentient beings. . . genuinely and authentically, with your dominant intent to feel good about the work you are doing.  Your guiding Light is always in vibrational Harmony with the Energy that is Source.  It is always about LOVE.  It is always about listening more deeply and ‘hearing’ what your soul is being called to do.  Let go of your ‘success’ models and modes and beliefs..they have no place here.  Not now. . .not anymore. There is an urgency at this tipping point as the earth aches for healing, love and respect for all life.

The world needs you to WAKE UP and become FULLY AWARE and CONSCIOUS of the needs of the people, and especially the animals, and the planet, right NOW.  Why and how is it that ‘we the people’ are cooking Dog’s and torturing them alive?  How is it that we can turn our backs on this and pretend it is all OK, when we know in our hearts and minds that it is not.  What does it take to stop this suffering and abuse for all animals, for all humans?  What can you do to make a difference now, today?

All you need is LOVE to get you there. . . and a little something more. Courage. Compassion. And the heartfelt desire and clear intention to ‘be’ the difference in the world that needs you NOW, ….right now, this very moment. It begins by taking conscious action.

Stop everything else.  Stop the suffering today.  Only ‘YOU’ can make a difference. . . if you choose to.  This is not about the small ‘i’, but the big ‘ I ‘ in the Universe. It begins with YOU. One person at a time…one step at a time.

We can all make a difference in the life of a human….in the life of an animal…and in the life of the planet!  Be graceful and easy about your own beautiful self.  You are exactly where you are in this moment to show up and be a huge Blessing to so many sentient beings. Shine your light….let go of your fear and worries.  Be the gorgeous, exquisite human you came here to be! And please help to stop the suffering now!  Take action. Be the change you want to see in the world. Start Today!

Savor the moment. Feel the Presence.  And be more deliberate and specific about the plans you are making and in all that you do.  Ask your Self:  ‘What is your unique talent and gifts that you can give back to the world right now?   Your desire for feeling good is your guiding light, but let it not be about you or your ego.  May  it be a spark of the Divine within you, wanting so uniquely to be expressed….and has no other choice but to manifest into the energy of Love and Beauty!  May it always and in all ways be a Blessing to all humanity and all sentient beings everywhere.

As you walk forward, with whatever shoes you wear, know that I too am walking forward, each and every day….Most often I am barefoot, finding my way between the sift of desert sands and the rich country hills of  endless grapes that keep appearing in the midst of the desert.  One can call it a mirage…it depends on the angel and flow of your thoughts. . . awareness comes in many different ways and in endless directions… some have even put it on a ‘map of consciousness’.  I believe the only map to follow is in one’s Heart.  That is the Center of all of Life.  It gives back without a Spiritual ego as the human ego dissolves.  It is a force for Good for everyone, everywhere.  It is where everything flows in, from, with and to…It is the endless and eternal map of Love and Oneness….a Love that is so much larger than you and encompasses all that is.  This is the map of Legacy….Love!