The Universe is Always Whispering…

The Universe is always speaking to us!

 

The Universe was whispering to me today.  It always does, but this afternoon it spoke a bit more loudly than usual.  Enough to pay attention to and lean in closely.  To listen carefully and feel what I was feeling.  Frank Sinatra music was playing in the background: “It was a very good year”.  A lifetime of reflection indeed.

I was gazing out the window, waiting to pick up dinner for my Mum.  This has always been her favorite neighborhood Italian restaurant, and pasta, pizza, and a salad were on the way.  Her comfort food for a night in.  As I sat there quietly, two of the waiters came over to greet me, leaving me with a hug and soft touch on my shoulder.  Mum and I have known these waiters for at least ten years.  Perhaps they sensed that I was missing the days when my Mum and family would come to dine here often.

Peering through the windows of gardens on the street, I reminisced about the days when I would bring my Puppy and leave her close by.  Always at the gate, nearby the table on the patio we always sat.  Many family get togethers over the years were shared here and many happy days!  And today, as the music from Frankie pipes through and I listen to his lyrics, “It Was a Very Good Year”, it reminds me of all those lovely years and times gone by when our family was together, year after year. 

What I felt and noticed today was that only I was visible, picking up a take out dinner for my Mum. All had changed, as life does. But the waiters were there, in all there sweetness, acknowledging me in the kindest of ways.  Somehow I think they felt my heart skip a beat in that moment.

I am always reminded each day when I get to share time with my Mum that it is an Extraordinary Blessing!  My Heart is filled with Gratitude.  And yet, I know her time is near.  She is 94 years old…soon to reach 95 and her lifetime batteries are slowing down.  Mum’s time on this planet and her Love she has given to so many has reached out, into the Universe, and is so very precious and beautiful. I simply don’t know how I’ll ever survive without her, but I will.  She has always been a BIG part of my Life, and a Pillar of Strength.  But letting go, when she is ready to let go is also a part of the journey of Life and Love. I pray that I will be ready when she is ready.  And a Blessing to her Life and Legend.  She is one of a kind!

What I do know for sure is that Life continues on, long after the physical human form is gone.  I left my body at the age of 19 and came back.  There was more to do and so much more beauty, life, and love to discover.  I was Gifted and Blessed with a return home to earth, before I make my soul transition. I am here for now. And I am grateful and recognize the Blessing of each new day. 

I know for sure that Life goes on…that there is total Oneness, and that while I’m here, there are so many more gifts of Beauty, Love, and Friendship I am yet to discover.  

For Mum:

“But now the days grow short
I’m in the autumn of the year
And now I think of my life as vintage wine
From fine old kegs
From the brim to the dregs
And it poured sweet and clear
It was a very good year…”

– Frank Sinatra  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-bhNz6saaE8

 

 

 

 

Total Lunar Eclipse: Full Moon Yoga

Golden Ceiling

Look Up!  Tonight is the longest total Lunar Eclipse of the 21st Century!  

Full Moon Yoga at the Beach.  Monarch Sunsets with Full Red Moon rising. 

Be a Stargazer and a Moon Watcher for some stunning Celestial Skies tonight.

Mars will be one of the brightest celestial objects lighting up our night time sky along with a blood red eclipsed Moon, as Mars makes its closest approach to the earth since 2013.

During this rare occurrence of celestial events, we will be able to see the Red Planet glowing brightly in Aquarius beside the Full Moon.  

Certainly a beautiful summer night for Star Gazing & Moon watching.  

Where will you be and what beautiful thoughts will you be thinking about?

 

 

 

 

Years May Go By. . .

Rosemarie Stack & Rita Tanos

Years may go by. . . we lose touch with cherished friends we think we’ll see again soon, and in the blink of eye, they are gone.  Into the ethereal realms of the heavens and God space…the eternal oneness.

This is my dear friend Rosemarie Stack whom I shared a beautiful friendship with for more than 25 years.  We were introduced during my years as head of W Magazine for the Western U.S. and became instant friends.  Her husband, Bob Stack was still with her at that time when they lived in a lovely home in Bel Air.  We co-hosted many parties together with friends, and friends of friends when Bob was still in good health and full of life.

Then came the terrible news that Bob had cancer and was undergoing radiation treatment.  It was a difficult time for the Stacks, especially Bob.  He was always so energetic, full of life and laughter and always telling jokes.  He simply loved life so much.  Within a heartbeat his life changed, and so did Rosemarie’s.  They shared a beautiful marriage, and a life long friendship and romance until the end in 2003, when Bob passed through the veils.

Rosemarie knew instantly that she could not stay in the home they shared together for so many years. Too many memories of the Love of her Life. So she decided to sell it and buy a condo on the Wilshire Corridor that once belonged to Lucy Doheny Battson, widow of the oil heir Edward “Ned” Doheny Jr.  Yes, those Doheny’s. 

Soon after a complete renovation of this stunning 5,000 square foot residence with 2,000 square feet of limestone patio and gardens, designed by David Jones, that included serious huge trees, flowers and waterfalls, Rosemarie decided to buy a gorgeous Villa in Cuernavaca, Mexico.  She asked me to come and join her to decorate her master bedroom, and 8 guest rooms.  So I said yes.

But before taking on that opportunity and challenge of a huge Villa in Cuernavaca, Rosemarie choose to have several parties at her new Wilshire address that included extraordinary people. Nancy Reagan, and Buzz Aldrin, the second person to walk on the Moon were among them.  And so many others from the film industry that Bob and Rosemarie shared a friendship with.  It was quite a series of welcoming parties into Rosemarie’s new abode.  

Upon every visit, I was asked in advance to stay overnight in her guest room/den. She always teased me with the flirtation that Steven Spielberg has slept in her den (and he did) and has a plaque on the wall, above the bed that proclaims it.  So I stayed, and spent several overnights while looking up at photographs of the Stacks’ life in Hollywood. There are images of Clark Gable and Carol Lombard, and one of Robert Stack playing polo with Spencer Tracy, and with President and Nancy Reagan, and a Life magazine cover of Rosemarie.

After four years of back and forth trips to Mexico, Rosemarie finally moved into her Villa in Cuernavaca.  It was stunning and peaceful and beautiful.  And we were both delighted with her Master Bedroom and the 8 guest rooms I helped to design.  

Rosemarie pursued her painting (which she was quite good at) and loved full retirement, away from the hustle and bustle of Los Angeles.  When I last saw Rosemarie, she had recently sold her Doheny Condo on Wilshire and already moved to Cuernavaca full time.  There was a knowing between us that this day would be the last time we would ever see each other.  And so it is and was.  Surrounded by glass tower windows in the Wilshire corridor of L.A., there we stood saying our final goodbyes.

Years may go by. . . so quickly, and in the blink of an eye your cherished friends may be gone.  Life is precious, and every one we share it with is even more precious. Treasure every moment together, and recognize the gift that they are in your life.  Today I am left with the wonderful memories and the laughter we shared together for so many years.  

 

 

 

 

 

Unfinished Manuscripts

Unfinished Manuscripts

 

So many blank books lie in my hands,

unfinished manuscripts broken by time,

yet unwritten, and barely just begun, 

or in need of a new beginning once again,

or a final ending, if there is ever an ending.

 

Disappearing words with forgotten notes,

sliding off pages, with chapters hidden,

no where to go, with this or that…

just the in-between space of silence.

 

Half forgotten blank entries 

inside a journal,

holding too many secrets,

that spill over into next chapters

that even I am yet to discover.

 

There lies an opening…

a chapter half written, 

with barely discovered voice

crying out with passion

inside the distance,

somewhere between voice

and silence.

 

It is always there,

the great silence,

firmly grounded in memories,

and in presence, in this moment,

slipping through conscious mind,

into the unconscious,

and back again.

 

Here and now.

Always and forever.

Constantly changing form, forever changing,

always seeking new beginnings

along side final endings.

 

The Yin and the Yang.

The circumference of their universe.

Forever evolving,

Always moving forward with every current,

Energy always flowing,

forever changing,

moving us all towards

next steps of evolution.

Our unwritten manuscripts make no difference,

it is only in the energy of now,

and in the gifts we share each day

that make a difference. Be here now.

 

Unfinished Manuscripts

Adjust Your Sails…It’s 2018

 

Adjust Your Sails

Every New Year begins with a cycle of new beginning’s… new hopes…new dreams… new possibilities, and also endings.  For some of us it is also about letting go of someone or something often important and meaningful in our lives.  It’s not easy, never easy, …but in some ways we find Grace and Gratitude along the way.

I am struck by the beauty of what Liz Gilbert shared yesterday in her posts on Instagram and Facebook about her best friend, her big love, and her beloved companion of many years, Rayya Elias.  It speaks to all of us.

“She was my love, my heart, my best friend, my teacher, my rebel, my angel, my protector, my challenger, my partner, my muse, my wizard, my surprise, my gift, my comet, my liberator, my rock star, my completely impossible non-cooperator, my otherworldly visitor, my spiritual portal, and my baby. I loved you so much, Rayya. Thank you for letting me walk with you right to the edge of the river. It has been the greatest honor of my life. I would tell you to rest in peace, but I know that you always found peace boring. May you rest in excitement. I will always love you.”

What I Love and Adore most about this deeply meaningful prayer message is:                                   ” Thank you for letting me walk with you right to the edge of the river.”

I too am walking this path to the edge of the river right now with my Beloved Mother. It is a complete lifetime of our loving each other, and our many decades of  beauty, joy, friendship, hardship, and learning how to love each other more beautifully and kindly each and every day.  We have shared so much Love & Joy for so many decades and I can’t imagine my life without Mum.  We are One.  She is the anchor to my heart and soul.  But I know too that one day she will say goodbye.  I can already witness the signs of her tiredness and a beginning to let go of it all.  There are many sights and sounds that I am aware of. 

I thank God and the Divine that my Mother is still here with me now, healthy, happy, and full of wit, humor, good sense, and energy!  At the graceful age of 94 , Mum still drives her car, and she works out every morning for 20 minutes. After breakfast and a relaxing morning, she drives herself to her club where she plays mahjong, and bridge every day.  It keeps her mind sharp and active.  And one day a week she volunteers at the Senior Center in the morning and does the accounting and check-in for all the luncheon attendees.  I am so Blessed to have an active and independent Mother like this! But she would have it no other way.  Nor would I!

When we get inside the thick and the thin of it all, we manage to adjust our sails.  It’s all about going with the flow…some days are easier than others, but we manage to make it work beautifully, gracefully, and with endearing hearts for each other.

Life is always about adjusting your sails to make the most of each moment. And the beauty always lies within each moment.