Each Friend Represents a World in Us. . .

 

Honey Moons & Friendship

Honey Moon – June 12/13, 2014

 

The Honey Moon

The Honey Moon

 

“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.”

         – Anais Nin

 

That’s how it was with us. . . We were a world unto each other and by the Grace of Divine Destiny, our paths crossed long ago and united us on a journey of the Soul. A long journey of friendship, love, deep connection and soul companionship that blended us together and joined us as One. How is it that my heart can break like this. . . over and over again?  So many deaths in my life, all in such a short time.

I don’t think I can bear it anymore, not even for another second.  My heart is split wide open, with too much pain and grief.  I feel this loss deeply and profoundly.  Have you ever lost a Beloved Best Friend that was closer to you than your own family?  Who knew you from the inside out?  Bare, dark corners and all that lay hidden inside, from the rest of the world.  There is an emptiness inside of me, like a part of my heart has been cut wide open and taken out of me.  I feel completely empty and alone.

While I know that the Soul is eternal, I am in the thickness of this empty forest right now, stuck inside this thorn bush, feeling the heat and slice of this sharp edge.  It cuts me to the core.  My heart bleeds.  Throbs.  Cries.  Rivers of tears flow, and I allow them.  This is grief.  This is loss.  This is the painful knowing that this beautiful and magnificent soul and friend I once could embrace and talk with for hours, sharing and bearing the deepest parts of my soul, is gone.  She was a world unto me that filled me up with delight and surprise, and created new dimensions of space inside my mind and heart, soul and spirit.  She was an architect of my soul’s evolution as we shared, uncovered, built and re-built the stories of the past, present and future.  We dreamed.  We imagined.  We laughed.  We cried.  We howled.  We thought.  We prayed.  We meditated.  We wept.  We walked.  We talked.  We constructed and de-constructed a million pounds of weight that no longer belonged to either of us, in both of our worlds.  We excavated.  We created demolition zones where they needed to be.  We built fortresses and safe camps when we needed them, and then we softly let them go when we did not.

This is the gift we shared.  The unconditional Love and Acceptance of each other, in all ways, always.  No judgement.  No attitude.  No opinion.  No structure.  No walls.  No expectations.  No belief systems.  Just clear, open space to be truly and authentically who we were and how we are, with each other.  This was the deep embrace of our Friendship.  This loving space was always there, forever Present, and always inviting us to go inside of it.  It was the world we shared inside of our Friendship with each other, where new worlds were possible and often created. 

Driving home tonight, I saw the brilliant Orange Sun behind me, like an orb of Golden, Orange Light. . . bigger than the biggest Sunset I have ever seen setting in the West.  In front of me was the Honey Moon, lingering so low and so close to my face, I felt I could reach out and touch it.  To my East were the beautiful dark mountains and shadows, and to my West was the Pacific Ocean, nearing the end of it’s Sunset.  Just before I left on this drive and journey home, a young Asian woman came up to me and embraced me like an old, sweet friend.  We had met once before and she noticed my sorrow.  I shared your photograph with her and told her of your recent passing.  She said, “She’s here with you right now. . . I can feel her” as tears streamed down her face.  I knew it was you, my sweet friend, in this moment, coming here to embrace me this night, in this human form of this charming young woman who knew I needed a hug from you.

 

Soul Sisters ~

My Beloved Friend & Soul Sister ~ Adrienne Grayson

My Beloved Friend &
Soul Sister ~
Adrianne Grayson

 

Soul Sisters ~

Some of us get really lucky in our lives . . . We are Blessed by a Soul Sister that Loves us unconditionally and for many years.  I was Blessed by my Beloved Friend & Soul Sister, Adrianne Grayson, whom I learned today passed through the veils of life to the doorway of death.  She was one of my Angels that lifted me up when my wings had forgotten how to fly.  At some of the darkest moments in my life, she was there, holding me with her Love.

No distance or lapse of time can lessen the Love or the Friendship we shared.  She lives on inside my Heart. Eternal is her Spirit.  As she rests with the Divine, I am eternally grateful for the many years of Love and Friendship we shared.  Times of Sacred Connection, times of Soul Companionship, times of healing, times of deep sharing and compassion, times of long and deep conversations, times of joy and laughter, times of reflection, times of Grace and Beauty, and times of just sitting together in silence, praying and meditating.

The greatest gift my Friend & Soul Sister, Adrianne gave to me, was her unconditional Love.  It was felt in the deepest parts of my being.  She knew me at my core.  I knew her at her core.  We were always there for each other, and in all ways, always.  How rare a friend. How special a companion on this journey of Life.  We honored each other with the gift of a Friendship so rare and true.

Adrianne represents to me what ‘True Beauty from Within’ is all about.  Radiant.  Joyful.  Loving.  Kind.  Generous.  Caring.  Compassionate.  Beautiful.  Charming.  At Peace.  A bright light of Love in my life. Shine on my sweet Beloved Friend & Soul Sister.  You will always be with me, living inside my Heart.

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